I found an empty swimming pool
in the middle of a field
i told myself
my dear, this is where i want to die
i dragged myself into the field
and crawled down the cemented steps
i lied there in the shallow end
until a hunger ate my stomach away
and with a sigh i cried out
i dont want to die this way
and you took care of me
until my stomach was full
and then you forgot your duty was to me
and you forgot you forgot
i knew my way back to that swimming pool
and there i drowned in my own tears
a swimming pool of salty tears
and a lonely girl alone alone with her own
hunger for a lover
1st period study hall
the day is off to a boring start
just like yesterday
and the day before
and the day before
and the day before
and the day before
and the day before
and the day before
....etc.
I have found that someone is mad at me. *sigh* what shall i do. i do not know. i think i shall cry. or perhaps not. Oh dear. she just walked into the library. kill me down. wait. dont...i do not care. she is ugly anyway. just kidding. ...........................uh...
yeah anyways....volleyball game today! w00t w00t! i cant wait this is gonna be great great great
hey. that rhymes dont it? yes it does. Wow, i'm bored. cant u tell? I'm sure you can. Thats right. I KNOW you can. moving on.
I just finished my 2nd section for my english report on F. Scott Fitzgerald. Its good....at least in my opinion it is. And my opinion is the only opinion that counts. So SCREW YOU U ****ER!! jk jk..i <3 you.
I'm really bored...but i'd rather stay in study hall all day than go to all my other periods. wouldnt you? i would. wait, i just told you that. errrrrrrrr moving on...ya'll are crazy for reading this.
crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy. crazy? i was crazy once, they put me in a biiiig white room, in a biiiig white coat. I died there. Worms ate me. Worms? i hate worms, they're crazy..........................
Its been raining here again....it started up again this morning while walking to 2nd period i believe. It was odd, because the sun was out, and didnt seem like it should be raining. Despite the light drizzle of water from the sky... I had to endure through a down pour of good feelings. haha. Today was generally a good day. I have no major complains. (except for the rain.)
After school, my friend Jamie and i went to the donut store that sits across the street from our school, and then we went to the boys volleyball games. It was delicious...er..the donut that is. The game went really good...well the Varsity game did. We won 3 out of 4. It was awesome!!! i had a great time...I Volleyball so much!!!! lol...cute eh? Well i guess thats about it. Love to you all!
Today was blah...
nothing big happend at all
AT ALL
the biggest thing that happend was..er..i dont know...
Tomorrow i'm going to my aunts house.
She is selling her car, and i am going to go test drive it and see if i want it. The odds of me actually getting it is 1 in like...30 or something. We dont really have the money to buy another car. Which sucks because i really have to start driving so i can get my license. I dont like having to be escourted around by my mom. heh.
I missed him today, he wanst around much. I saw him once after school. He did something pretty odd today. He signed the guesbook in my profile with a simple 5 or 6 word entry. But oh well..it was cute. Lol...
Does anyone read this thing anymore? Does anyone read it period? eh..oh well, i use it mainly for my entertainment anyways.
Yes, it is the cutie Ben Jelen. He has an awesome voice and good songs...plus hes majorly cute! hehe i <3 ben! go to BenJelen.com and check out his video for "come on" its really cool...the vid and the song!!!! his Debut CD comes out March 30!! COUTIN DOWN! ;x
If you told me you were happy i'd happily deny that i believed you the clouds in your eyes and grayer than those in the sky and the tears forming behind your hazel wonders are bigger than the biggest rain falling in december i cant make you believe me no matter what i do so i'll write you many letters that will never be sent you can hate me from a far behind your fake smiles and your "hellos" and i will love you from a far behind my bright brown eyes cloudy with regret i will drown in my tears that had never been wept and life will go on go on, go on you'll never realize how much i could give cause you never gave me the chance to protect you from those storms
Name: Heidi Nick Names: Heidizzle, Tabasco Verde, Haley bear Age: 16 Gender: Female..obviously Origin: California Ethnicity: Dutch, German, Irish, and Polish (and proud :D) Family: 1 mom, 1 dad, 2 brothers, 1 sister computer status: i have my own. yay 4 me
Loves: God Music stars the 5 pointed ones chocolate nice computers blogs sub-profiles AIM screen names my class ring my guitar my family and friends USC ASU chap-stick Lake Havasu, Arizona pink pens cinnamon gum / mints IN N OUT cheeseburgers with onions chocolate shakes
Dislikes: slow computers the devil ;D ppl that:
are rude, are obnoxious, chew with their mouths open, dont have AIM profiles have un-natural hair highlights dont like chocolate chomp their gum dont use computers and could dont smell good are snobby or stuck up
Mc donalds crazy drivers getting up early riding the bus to school homework some of my teachers Art 1 (haha) Math my hair (its curly and i want it straight) K-mart looking clothes (hehe) Scary movies
Favorite Movies: Billy Madison Top Gun Moulin Rouge
Favorite TV Shows: Joan of Arcadia One Tree Hill Gilmore Girls MTV Real World MTV Road Rules The Fuse Network
Favorite Bands/Musicians/CD's: Taking Back Sunday Something Corporate Finch The Starting Line Staind Stabbing Westward July for Kings Nine Days Britney Spears CD "In The Zone" (only...thats all i like i swear) etc. My other Blog:
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